Learning Difficult Lessons

Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart.
Every human being on this Earth is born with a tragedy, and it isn't original sin. From my 18 years and few months of breathing in this earth, I experienced that it's pointless begging someone for something that was never belonged to you.

Somehow it's gonna be different when it comes to your own relationships with others.
Did you ever beg your Boy or girl friend not to leave you? Now think back again, was it pointless and eventhough you succeed, what is the point of begging someone to accept your selfish love? You are just throwing your own dignity while making the another side feel you are troublesome to get rid of it.
You might think it's worth it because you never thought what he/she was thinking.
Everyone is learning in life. If you did wrong, you can correct it..but if you're losing someone, you might never get it back. I did lost one best friend since I was 14 years old it was because of money. 18 years old from now, I lost another best friend it was because of love. Why should we need love in this age? Am I get too insane of asking this question? Guess not...maybe and it's maybe I should never do that! Apologize is useless. Worth to lose a best friend because of love? Maybe he/she was treating you too well but you never care he/ she feelings. Maybe I was selfish about myself. I made a promise to myself since I broke with my ex girlfriend 3 years ago. It's time to tell the truth. The promise is I wouldn't had any relationships anymore.

Lesson 1, Life experience never lend money from friend if you can't effort to pay it or pay it too late. Lesson 2, Think before you speak or else you'll losing something.
Lesson 3, Learn how to be stronger without speaking apologize.

I sank into the wring as torn apart as the heart I held on my lap. The faded heart turned deep red where my tears dropped on it. It had taken me too long to see the truth. I was too late.
I'm sorry for all the times I lost my temper.
For all the love you've given me, and I haven't given back.
For all the times you were patiend
A virtue that I lack.

I'm sorry for all the times i lied
For the people i hurt along the way
Not a day goes by that I don't regret it
And I'd take it back someday.

The only person I cared about was me and only me
And now I'm truly sorry
I only wish I could make you see someday.

First day working at Shipyard

Today I start working first day in shipyard. The company named Forward Marine Enterprise. If you're interested, please visit http://www.forwardgroup.my/ =D Don't visit the site if you're not interested in ship. haha~ I work as Plasma CNC, I manage the computer machine. My job is to put the data & setting in the computer then it will draw out the shape on the metal automatically and it will cut it automatically too. It's quite relax job but still need to be careful. While waiting the metal to be cut, you can sit in the office goyang kaki...lol *joking* =D

My boss is Alex Tang..he's head of plasma CNC.. I got one partner and that's my friend, Bao Bao.
Mr. Tang Tiong Tai is responsible for setting and executing the vision of FORWARD as the leading ship builder in Malaysia. He has more than 30 years of experience in ship building and engineering. In 2000, having recognized the surging demand for work boats, Mr. Tang decisively launched the second shipyard Forward Marine Enterprise that has been successfully integrated into Forward Shipbuilding, the former company.

It's just first day on working and I know many new friends already. I heard that the boss was like a tiger. I guess it's not...He's a busy man. I gonna work it steadily and be careful. I like the job and maybe I can get use to it. =D

Anyway, I'm happy with the job.

America's Best Dance Crew Season 5 Poreotics_Poreotix Compilation

These shaded showmen inspired by robots aim to entertain the dance world with their unexpected humor and revolutionary mixed style. Over the last couple of years Poreotix have laboriously honed their craft of popping and robotic movement and are at the pinnacle of their game. The way in which the crew blends the different dance styles gives them a distinctive animated look, and their integration of humor makes their performances fiercely entertaining. Poreotix are true showmen and never perform without their trademark shades. They use them as a tool to hide emotion so they can provide unexpected twists in their routine, taking the audience from serious to funny without tipping their hand.

Unfortunately, crew member Justin Valles has more on his plate than just winning the ABDC title. During this seasons auditions, Justins father was hospitalized for liver and kidney failure. He has since been released from the hospital but has been rejected for a liver transplant. They are unsure how much longer Justins dad can live without a new liver. This obviously weighs heavily on Justins mind and he feels blessed to be able to give his family the joy of watching him dance in these unfortunate times.

This crew has captured a special style and is extremely confident they will be crowned the next winner of Americas Best Dance Crew.

"We are da asian and we hab small eye and we like robot"-Lawrence "Law" Devera

They are really so awesome, hot, funny! Poreotix go FORWARD!

Visit Camp PLKN Similajau Bintulu

Bintulu Trip 1st May 2010 - 2nd May 2010~

I went to visit camp PLKN Similajau Bintulu on 2nd May 2010 with my friends...that's Bibiana, Yien, Lydia & Jenny. Unfortunately, I'm the only guy. Actually Ah Gui is following but his Uncle didn't gave him the money so he can't join this trip...quite disappointed. We go to Bintulu on 1st May 2010 by taking bus at 6am and arrived at 10am. So, we decided to stay at Walden Inn that Cikgu Lin suggested us and it's nearby bus terminal.

After we put our luggage at Walden Inn, we go down for breakfast. Then, we went for shopping at Farley & Sing Kwong Supermarket. We bought a lot of things as gift to our dear PLKN coach. While we're shopping in Sing Kwong, we met our KJ Muran & Cikgu Joe. It's quite surprise that we can saw them at there.

Yummy~ Yummy~ Yummy~

We went to eat KFC as our dinner. =)
After that we decided to go watch movie at starcineplex.
When we arrived at City Point, we still got half hour. Lydia & Yien went for the car racing in fun centre. lols..We watch Ironman2 and the movie was so great. =)

The next morning we go ate our breakfast at nearby coffee shop. After that, we head back to our Inn and pack our stuff ready to checkout at 12noon. We do take some picture with this uncle. He's cikgu Lin's husband. Thanks to him for finding a room for us. =D
After that, we go camp similajau by taxi.

Finally we arrive at Camp Similajau. Our Commander ask Cikgu Yunus to invite us go in camp. lols..we bought some food & drinks for all our coach.
Cikgu Ahmad force ask to eat in the camp again. haha~ he still want us to wash our own plate after eat.
Cikgu Alif fetch me go wira dorm by his car and walk around in the dorm. The other 4 girls went to wirawati dorm to visit their beloved coach. I still remember my boomerang stuck on the top of the charlie's dorm roof. Guess who made that boomerang stuck on the roof....xD It's our Sergeant Eddy Tiong. haha..

When I go knock cikgu Sulai room, he opened his door and get surprised to see me I was standing in front of him. I chatted with him for a hour and transfer some music, movies, & pictures to him. I met many new friends and coach again in NS...some of them still ask "Did you bring any cigarettes. I don't smoke how I'll have cigarettes..wait long long bah...
I was surprised when I heard Sulai said Sergeant Bolhan was resting in the Coach resting room. Then i quickly go there and find him...he's still like old time..like to joke. "You can't see me"
He transfer all the NS video to me.
While I was waiting Bibi them come out from dorm..I saw Cikgu Mali come back by driving his car. He still remember me and say Hi, apa khabar? I'm glad to saw all my charlie's coach except Cikgu Rash. He retired the job and go work as a clerk. It was because his family want him to work as clerk..so, he granted his family wish. He's a nice guy.

Take a tea break in VIP room and we take photo with Sergeant Bolhan. He's going to fetch us to bus terminal.

We take some photo with Cikgu Sulai. I'm glad to meet him again.

I was surprised again when we arrived at Bus Terminal..I met Cikgu Hazrol at there. He do KJ in kump 2 siri 7/2010. He's very busy doing his work.

Thanks Sergeant Bolhan for giving us a ride to bus terminal. I'm so happy to have this trip with my friends and met all my PLKN coach..especially Hazrol...haha
Cherney, dont get so disappointed can't see Hazrol. Next time can go again...hehehe
So, we leave bintulu at 6pm. Bye Bye Bintulu. =)

Somewhere in the Middle?

It is the time we're growing up. A journey lies ahead for all teenagers today.
A journey to adulthood, our youth to kiss away.
But as we go we find ourselves
At a truly awkward stage.
We're partial, unripe, sketchy and crude at this tender age.

We're old enough to make a choice. We can choose to be what you want to be.
Yet still young in many ways.
Too young to pack our bags and go. Too old to want to stay.

We're young enough for fun and games,
too old for carefree lives.
Young enough for hopes and dreams,
yet for reality we strive.

Old enough for heartfelt pain,
too young to find the cure.
Too old for childish ways of past,
too young to be mature.

Old enough to fall in love when we're teenager and give our hearts away.
But, still too young to understand..,just why we feel this way.

We're trusted, loyal, proud and true
yet scolded, sneered and scorned.
Between the role of adult and child,
we are somewhere torn.

Like an uncompleted work at art,
we're awkward, unsure, half-baked.
But be patient please for we're on our way to becoming something great.

I'm Bacckkkkk again!

Woahh...I just finish the movie, Ip Man 2 (葉問2) from King's Trioplex. I went to watch movie with my friends, Jowy, Jiang Ming, Shiang Teck. The cinema is full. It's a nice movie and I love it. I love all kind of action movie that Donnie Yen acted. I like the part that Donnie was fighting with Sammo..it was amazing but overall the fights look better in part 1.
Last night I went dinner at Sushi Tie with my NS friend, Cherney & Yee Ling. Someone didn't come and that's my NS coach, Cikgu Hazrol. Cherney didn't told me this..she put aeroplane. LoLs..
Actually Hazrol is on the way back to Sibu but he will arrive late and can't attend to the dinner. Quite disappointed..
After dinner, we walk around in Parkson then I saw my old schoolmate, Eric Song at Public bookstore and I chatted with him for few minutes. His face still look red like old times...haha
Ohhh~ And I should thanks Cherney for gifted a little present for me that she bought from China.
After Cherney & Yee Ling are back home, my friend come pick me up at Parkson and go for McDonald and had some meals then go for the movie. It was 1am in the morning after finishing the movie...I found that my mum was waiting me back home when I arrive at home. Gosh..i made her wait me again. Sorry mum. =(
The only person i cared about was me and only me. And now I'm truly sorry. I know that's a little late. My deeds can't be undone and I realize now that I was wrong. So sorry.
Anyway I'm happy to have dinner with Cherney & Yee Ling and enjoy nice movie with my friends. =D =D =D

Again

If when you wake up in the morning,
And the hurting is so great,
You don't want to get out of bed
And face a world of hate.

If everything in life goes wrong
And nothing you do seems right,
You just try a little bit harder
And soon you'll see the light.

For every person who has put you down
And filled your life with pain,
You must strive to achieve greatness
And show them you can win.

For every disappointment,
For the times your are let down,
There will be a better moment
And your life will turn around.

Because everyone feels heartache
And everyone feels pain,
But only those who have true courage
Can get up and try again.