Learning Difficult Lessons

Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart.
Every human being on this Earth is born with a tragedy, and it isn't original sin. From my 18 years and few months of breathing in this earth, I experienced that it's pointless begging someone for something that was never belonged to you.

Somehow it's gonna be different when it comes to your own relationships with others.
Did you ever beg your Boy or girl friend not to leave you? Now think back again, was it pointless and eventhough you succeed, what is the point of begging someone to accept your selfish love? You are just throwing your own dignity while making the another side feel you are troublesome to get rid of it.
You might think it's worth it because you never thought what he/she was thinking.
Everyone is learning in life. If you did wrong, you can correct it..but if you're losing someone, you might never get it back. I did lost one best friend since I was 14 years old it was because of money. 18 years old from now, I lost another best friend it was because of love. Why should we need love in this age? Am I get too insane of asking this question? Guess not...maybe and it's maybe I should never do that! Apologize is useless. Worth to lose a best friend because of love? Maybe he/she was treating you too well but you never care he/ she feelings. Maybe I was selfish about myself. I made a promise to myself since I broke with my ex girlfriend 3 years ago. It's time to tell the truth. The promise is I wouldn't had any relationships anymore.

Lesson 1, Life experience never lend money from friend if you can't effort to pay it or pay it too late. Lesson 2, Think before you speak or else you'll losing something.
Lesson 3, Learn how to be stronger without speaking apologize.

I sank into the wring as torn apart as the heart I held on my lap. The faded heart turned deep red where my tears dropped on it. It had taken me too long to see the truth. I was too late.
I'm sorry for all the times I lost my temper.
For all the love you've given me, and I haven't given back.
For all the times you were patiend
A virtue that I lack.

I'm sorry for all the times i lied
For the people i hurt along the way
Not a day goes by that I don't regret it
And I'd take it back someday.

The only person I cared about was me and only me
And now I'm truly sorry
I only wish I could make you see someday.